Mind Stuff: May 14, 2017

I'm addicted to the Notes app on my iPhone. I have EVERYTHING in there. Here are some thoughts I typed in this week that I either haven't decided what to do with yet or I just feel like need to be set free out into the universe.

I don't know if I believe in oracle decks, but this moon deck (pictured above) is really pretty and I'm having a lot of fun asking questions, like it's a more aesthetically pleasing, less creepy Ouija Board. 

I truly believe in energy. I believe that we pick up other people's energy and that some people are more susceptible to this than others. I believe that the thoughts we have manifest themselves in our physical bodies sometimes. When my struggle with panic disorder was at its peak it always manifested itself in physical symptoms which only made me more anxious because I would consult Dr. Google. I'm a believer in meditation and yoga and Reiki. That said, some shit is just medical and genetic so don't drag your feet or talk yourself out of seeing a doctor, friends. Skin cancer runs in my family and I FINALLY went to the dermatologist for an annual skin check. Pre-cancerous mole on my back. We caught it early. And that's rad. I know when you're living a holisitc life it's easy to get Eastern healing tunnel vision, and Eastern methods have truly done wonders for my panic disorder, more than any pharmaceutical ever did, but don't be afraid of western medical professionsals. Yogis get cancer, too


I recently broke up with my hair dryer and I've been re-learning what my natural hair is like and it's been a TRIP. Now taking any and all suggestions for how to deal with frizz and very random uncontrolled curl chaos. Because I don't know how to handle it, and thus my hair has become a metaphor for my life.

I'm forcing myself to apply for jobs/teaching opportunities I don't feel qualified for because it's come to my attention that men do this all the time, so why not me? Also, I'm realizing that most people have a much lower bar for what counts as "qualified" than my own brain does.